Latest Knitting project

Well Ive finally done it completed another knitting project. It was super quick! Not sure if you can make out patter but it is a dropped stitch scarf, Row 1- knit one wrap yarn around needle once, knit next stitch. Complete until end of row, Row 2 knit all stitches but wrapped yarn let it "drop" Row 3 same as Row 1 but instead wrap yarn around 2 times and Row 4- drop wrapped yarn again. Row 5- around 3 times and in row 6 let yarn fall knit all stitches but wrapped yarn. I had fun making it and really should do it more often and finish all my other projects; but I am however working on a new one I just started tonight, a hat for a Coworker who was just diagnosed with breast cancer. :( Itll be made out of 50% alpaca and 50% silk, nice and soft for a bald head :)

Calling...

Several times in life one faces their "spiritual calling" I think for me and those like me (Nurses) it is hard to balance spiritual with other aspects of their life. I am not referring to religious because there is a difference. I am talking about the connection you feel with people when you see them at their worst, and at their best. It is the giving of one self to care for others. Now granted there are days and times where it is so hard to be there wholly but I certainly try. So many of my aspects of my job are hard to stomach, Child protective services cases for abused children, children with cancer, children who have chronic medical conditions requiring constant surgery. I see family dynamics change for the better and worse. Most parents are involved some arent, both aspects have there pros and cons. I think being a Nurse in general is especially hard, try caring for a patient population that cannot verbalize their pain, discomfort and distress.

On top of all of this I have to get all my charting done, manage my career goals- RN II status, committee meetings, involvment on policy reviews, and other political stuff that goes a long with jobs.

I just wish some days I could just go and not have to worry about any of the other miscellaneous crap, and just focus on my patients and get paid adequately. At this point I am getting proficient and able to function with limited involvement from other RNs, Charge RNs and it is a comforting feeling. However, one can never be to comfortable in this profession because at a moments notice things change!

Thats my little soapbox, hope it was helpful to the insight of my job. :0)

SF in city

Well my family and I went to SF last weekend. It is such a pretty place to be at Christmas time, just like the song "Christmas in the city" It wasnt a spure of the moment planning but almost. We took BART there and walked a few blocks to the Union Square where we went to Cheesecake Factory and then wandered around Macy's and went Ice Skating after dinner. It was great! Heres some pictures...(Its so hard to put the pictures in order on this website so sorry for random order)

Life

Well as it turns out I have changed over the last year significantly. I am not the same care free, positive person I used to be. It has a lot to do with moving out, and learning how life really works. I dont enjoy life any more and am frustrated by the littlest things. Dogs, boyfriend, family. Etc.
The biggest part of it is losing my grandpa this year. I knew it would be hard, I saw it coming and yet I am still having a hard time with it. There isnt a day that goes by that I dont think about him and how much I miss him.
I hardly work leaving a lot of down time to think, be bored and dig my debt hole even bigger by shopping unnecessarily. I would give anything to have no debt and be making more money. Which I why I always keep my options open.
My house is always clean because I have nothing else to do, and I am pretty much caught up on all my projects.
Anyways work is going fine. I just hate my life. Nothing new and exciting.
(Mom dont want any questions- take it for what it is)