LIfe

The topic of this blog is life, because it has got me in such turmoil at the moment. I am at the point in my life where I am finding nothing making me happy, truly deep down full of vigor happy. There is nothing that can be done or said by anyone to fulfill this. I am learning it has to come from within myself. Dont get me wrong there are somethings that I am proud of and that helps a little, but there are other things like how impatient I get with those who I love. I would love to be able to accept them for who they are and not get so irritated with them. I would love to be able to take it one day at a time, and calm down. I feel like the only things that give me hope is things I have planned in the future. Which helps but again not completely fulfilling. I love all of my many talents, effiency and other traits about myself. I am actually physically happy its emotionally and mentally. I had no idea that this type of struggle was as taxing as it was. I am going to try and incorporate the use of an online free counseling to help get my mind straightened out. I know that trying to decipher the human psyche is not one of my strong suits. I think I may also have to dust off my nursing books as well... The biggest issue to deal with right now is my relationship with my boyfriend of almost 10 years. At this point I am moving out, and well just take it a "day at a time" and discuss our future and the issues we are both struggling with. There stating that out just helped. I have always been a person who cannot keep thoughts in my head, I have to journal them in order to clarify what I am thinking and remember what I thinking. Hence the reason I cannot keep secrets! I cant remember them! :)