Update

Wow, its been a while since Ive updated you huh? Well work is tough but Im getting the hang of it. Dealing with children who are barely hanging on to the edge of their lives is a struggle but so worthwhile. It makes my whole life feel so much more important and necessary I suppose. The environment that I work in has been the hardest to cope with, there a few RNs are not inviting they are not welcoming and they have a "tough love" mentality. This does not foster confidence in people coming in who have never had any ICU experience. As a new person to this environment I would have preferred this. However, I have recently found out that this unit has had a huge turnover rate in the last years so thats why they have the mentality that they do. I feel a slight change to the unit. There are a few of us that will no longer tolerate this mentality and are rallying together to create a change. Whether or not it will happen who knows.

Update on life...

Well world,

I am still on the dating scene. What a game love is! Haha! Flirting, figuring each other out. Making the fun last. Then seeing the real person for who they are. Haha, its been quite the learning process. The one are of my life I would have to say I was "immature" about - more like inexperienced. I have brought my wall down which is good again, its more of a chain link fence now though . Still a little reserved but out there.

Next topic, I am going back to school- yup in the process of completing my Grad School application. My only concern is $$ and where its going to come from to fund such a endeavor.

I am getting more involved with work policy reviews, committee stuff, and hopefully on the UNION Negotiation committee.

I am overall in a good place. I am able to focus on me again and see my goals. I am slowly making progress towards all of them but its tiring. A good thing for this little energetic woman.

Keep you updated.

Miranda

Maturation

I never thought that this last year would have taught me so much! I started out with ending a 10 year relationship with my high school sweetheart. I have since achieved my dream job, and independence from him. I have learned what I like and dont like in myself, others and especially men. I have dated a few. Slept with most. Gotta get the full experience. Lol, the good with the bad. Its all part of the game. I have been up and down with my choices, emotions and decisions. I have my friends and family to thank for their support, encouragement and love that has gotten me through this last year! Without them I couldnt have done it. This last week has been by far the hardest. Just all a learning experience. Thats all I can explain it to be. There has been so much thinking, praying talking with parents, friends and family. Oy! I never knew/learned so much about myself! Everyone has rallied around me and made me feel great! All the little nuances that life has in it has surfaced this last few weeks and its been rough! Everyone has noticed and now I am going to do for me!! Focus on my job, and saving money so I can buy a house next year and do some traveling. If a boy comes along and wants to stick around for a while then so be it. Im not going to force anything, try and control anything and I am now assured of how much I am worth! I have a good job, I am smart, hard working, and very caring. These things I have to keep telling myself these things and forget about the rest!

-M

Stay tuned for pictures and updates of my recent and to be completed trips!